Driving Me Crazy Feeling

I'm thinking back to about three years ago. I was living away from home. I had a new baby and could not feel normal or happy. I had the worst anxiety and anger problems. I would get so upset at my husband and felt crazy.

There was a school about thirty minutes away that I was looking at going to for aesthetics but it was not a nationally accredited school. There was also a dump of a school in town that I thought I'd be able to go to that was nationally accredited but they didn't have enough students there and the man who owned the school told me that he was going to get rid of the program. I was so bummed that there was not a way for me to go to school, devastated. I could not understand why circumstances couldn't be better. I wanted to be a mom. Why would I want to work and leave my 6 month and 2 year old at a day care? I even knew a great lady who was willing to watch them at an affordable price. The circumstances didn't work out non the less.

Looking at it now obviously everything worked out great. Eventually Craig was able to transfer and we moved back to our home area where we grew up. Now we our on our way to a new home and I've been staying home with my kids. The anger and a ton of frustration is back. I feel this annoying energy to get off my butt and get a job. Only problem we will be moving to our new house and I don't know what is out in that area we are moving to. I finished the Medical/Master Esthetics a couple months ago. Even had an interview at a place that failed so obviously I knew it five minutes into the interview. But anyway, I don't think I would have entirely liked the place.

Well typing about this now I am optimistic that this will just be a lot like how I badly wanted to move back to home and go to the nationally accredited school I had my eye on. (Which happened a year later!)

Oh and the Cosmo Prof trip was great. I got to be there myself without the kidlets and just enjoy looking at everything and dreaming about what I could do with a business in my basement. I know the smart way to go about that though is to work somewhere first and gain a clientele and add to your experience. Still fun for me to dream. I did get some supplies that could come in handy for some fun. Hopefully I will have some friends and family over for some wax'n parties and facials and spray tans. I get so excited thinking about it!